I subscribed to a newsletter some 2 years ago and every time it comes to me it mirrors my exact situation.
Its a year ago today since my friend Robert Longbottom passed over and I had not seen him much towards the end I had moved out of the area and was just redecorating the kitchen of the new house.
I was up the step ladder putting some wallpaper on the walls not thinking of anything particular when I felt something behind me and this something stayed for a couple of hours and then left.
I had no way of knowing who it was, for the whole week songs were coming on the radio we shared, someone gave me a Crystal Bible and it reminded me of him and the lovely day we had in Derbyshire. And lots of other things, were coming back to me, wonderful memories of the empty kitchen and when he blew himself up with the gas leak.
The reason I am writing this is just to let you know Rob wherever you are I loved you with all my heart but it was so hard to watch you kill yourself and I did not have the strength to stand by and watch that happen.
I have felt guilty ever since like somehow I deserted you in your hour of need. I had to accept that your illness was greater than me and I could not save you.
So today when this newsletter popped into my mail box I know that the universe helps me on many many levels.
And by the way this man is fantastic Dick Warn and his Miracle Minute:
Pain Is Inevitable
Bad things happen. The passing of a parent, the death of a pet, rejection
from someone important, the loss of something you truly enjoy, and the
list is endless. There is no “pain free” way to live. We build attachments.
Attachments come to an end. Yet, as Buddha said, “Pain is inevitable.
These emotions are normal. What causes suffering is getting stuck in
anger, denial or blame. Some people make careers out of anger and
problems in life are all in a certain sense insoluble. They can never be
that we like it. Acceptance means we accept the fact that it happened and
understand that the only thing we can control is our reaction. Some
people choose the path of a survivor and others choose the path of a victim.
with apathy, but there’s all the difference in the world. Apathy fails to
distinguish between what can and what cannot be helped; acceptance
makes that distinction. Apathy paralyzes the will-to-action; acceptance
which I cannot mend.”
|Copyright 2009 Richard S. Warn & Associates|